My first kiss happened not so long ago. It was on September 2nd, 2005, around 4am. I was 16, she was 18. Okay, I'm going to start from the very beginning, because this will probably seem very very complicated and confusing if you don't know the whole story.
It was the beginning of the summer (late June/early July) when I realized I liked her, no, I realized I loved her. Of course, I was too shy to tell her directly, so instead I told her I had feelings for someone, and I began to describe her. She would ask questions, and I would answer them. After the conversation had progressed for some time, she finally convinced me to tell her who it was; she had already figured it out. But she let me tell her on my own. She's a genius in that way.
We soon began to spend more and more time together. Learning about eachother, exploring eachother's soul. It eventually got down to spending nights at her house, watching movies, or just talking, spending time together. I used to be extremely uncomfortable with touch; I always had a 'bubble'. She, however, can't stop touching others, especially those she cares for. So, it was a bit scary for me to be around her, because of the feelings I had for her, and the feelings she was growing for me, and the contact that went with her feelings. She was my first hand-hold, as well as my first kiss.
We spent many nights out walking, gazing at the starlit sky. It was amazing. Then, after one incredible night, we were taking our time saying good bye. We stood at the road in which we separated, her house at one end, mine at the other. We stood there for what seemed like forever, just holding each other. We would just talk about whatever came to mind, and there were times of just silence as well. We would listen to each other breathe, and smear up each other’s glasses. When our good bye was coming to an end she said, "Are you brave enough yet?" I asked "To do what?" She quickly said "This." as she moved her head quickly and came in to kiss me. Her kiss was soft and gentle, yet forced so I wouldn't back away. I was shocked. Her tongue gently parted my lips, teasing me with her beauty. It was a short kiss, but thinking back on it, it seemed to last forever. Then we really said good bye, and just as her hand was about to leave mine, I whispered, "I Love you." I had been planning on saying it all night, I had been gathering up the courage to say it for some time. She quickly came back, kissed me again, hugged me again, and whispered "I know," into my ear. Then we finally parted ways. I was in shock the whole way home. Tears of happiness slowly rolling down my cheek.
We continued to spend our nights together until she moved away to college. Our kisses became more frequent, and longer lasting. It was heaven. Her hands would caress my neck and back, and I would mimic her moves. I was completely inexperienced, and she taught me how to touch people, kiss them back. Kiss her back.
Sadly, she has now moved to college. She lives 2 hours away, so I try to visit her on the weekends. I miss her so badly.
She was and still is, my first Love.